Woke up a little early but I had a good sleep.
I arrive in Cambridge at 8:10 am, here I am at the station waiting for my friend. It is becoming a routine for me every Wednesday before we go to the University together. We were catching up on how our week was and also talked about the presentation. She thinks that she did well but believes that she could have done it better and I felt the same. I told her about the questioning part of the presentation I felt that I did not do well. She said “It is only 10%” and I replied, “10% does really mean a lot so I hope I did okay.”
We headed to Compass House for our 9 am lecture and the presentation today is about Doping. If you wanted to ask me how I feel about the presentation about Doping. Honestly, I find it all right. I do know how it is important to know about doping in sport but there is so many laws, regulations, testing and debate about why people are against it or not. One of the students was talking about is it okay for the coach to give young athlete to take drugs for certain sport? I’m talking the age between 12 – 16. Do you think it is okay? Do you think it is the young athlete’s responsibility to know what they are taking or even if they got positive for taking one, it is their own problem? With these questions about young athletes taking drugs makes you think about what would you do if you are in this situation.
Anyway, I had my result for the presentation for modality last week on. I didn’t get the grade that I was expecting. However, hearing a feedback from the marker. He said that what’s interesting about my presentation is that when I said my modality is me he was really interested in that. He wanted to hear more about what I have to say. First, I did explain about ontology, epistemology and how they linked together. He liked how I asked the audience the questions to see if they understand. He wanted me to explain things little more in-depth. He wanted to hear how I did with my journal article and how am I used to use that as part of my research to get people to share their experiences/story. It was mainly more that he wanted me to talk more about my research and what am I looking for. Something more in depth rather than me talking about the ontology and epistemology.
Not only he talked about what he was hoping for, he was amazed about from his experience when he sees a deaf person doing a presentation, they seem to struggle but he was surprised about how my speech was excellent, I took my time to explain things slowly and so on. But he was confused how can a deaf person like me can do the presentation so well? I explained to him why I hard to learn things in a hard way because every time when I know I have to do the presentation. I like to practise my speech and that is important for me. I am not sure about other deaf people but it is for me massively because I come from hearing family and I know what it feels to lose my hearing since when I was a kid, as well as the thought of me not being able to speak again to communicate with my family.
I literally go to google translator and type in the word I want to learn how to pronounce like “Emancipatory or Autoethnography.” Believe me, it is not an easy word but I would spend an hour learning how to say these words. Then go and tell my parents if I am pronouncing the words correctly. To be honest, they do struggle on how to say it but, it was my parents who keep encouraging me to speak every day, correcting my grammar and everything you could think of to improve my speech and they still do that to me today. It is really annoying but I am grateful for that. I know most deaf people prefer to sign rather than to speak but for me, I think it is important to learn how to speak properly as well as signing. So, this is what I told him and he was really impressed with that. He said “If I were you, I wouldn’t worry about your grade because your research project is unique and I look forward to it and congratulation with your publication. Also, you can’t fail a master student who has published his academic journal.”
Honestly, when he said that I never felt so proud of myself listening to his feedback. Of course, there was some criticism but it was something that I could learn from him and see what I need to improve next time.